The most scariest thing for me is NOT being able to go to heaven, which is knowns as JANNAH. Recently, I started thinking about
my path, and where will I be after life. I start to ask myself a lot of unanswered questions that have been circling around my head for a long time now. Where will I end up
after this life? Am I a good person? Did I do anything wrong to anyone? Am I
missing something? do I deserve to be in JANNAH? did I obey Allah as I should have done?
Life is full of
temptations and sins that could any person drown in them, such as: drinking, doing drugs, abusing people and being evil… etc. All these temptations lead to
bad actions, which are difficult to avoid, and which ends up making us go to Hell. That
what makes me worry a lot. On the other hand, our religion ISLAM urges us to
pray, to fast, to help people whom their situation is worst than us especially
poor and old people and the most important one is to be good with ourselves and with
other people. But, if we take a minute to look at this. There aren’t a lot of
people who follow these instructions. They prefer to waste their money and
energy on doing the bad things, just to be cool or to have fun, and they forget
all the important things that they suppose to do. They say: ‘’ Let have fun
today, let enjoy our time, and some day when we grew up we will penance and start to pray, and
ALLAH will forgive us’’. What about if their time comes and they are not prepared
and they suddenly die? How are they going to stand in front of their mighty creator, knowing that
they did not do anything good in life. That
what makes me think, am I one of them?
I know that I am trying my best to avoid all these
temptations to be a good person, and to hold on to my religion, but is that
enough? Allah is merciful but he punishes as well. We should not say or believe that he will forgive us all the time for everything because it is for Allah to judge wether he will forgive or will punish. May Allah have mercy on all of us.
Fahd, What you write here is a question so many people ask themselves whether they are religious or not. "Am I a good person?" I cannot answer this for you and really only ones' self can know the true answer. But just in asking the question points out that you are conscience of your actions, reactions, and even your thoughts which is a wonderful start. Isn't it?
ReplyDeleteI can tell you my opinion however. And my opinion is that you appear to be a wonderful, thoughtful, and compassionate person. I hope that questions like this don't weigh to heavily on your mind and that you are able to rejoice in the fact that your life is blessed and you are attempting to make the best of it.